...my sweet boy...

-blonde hair and blue eyes
-loves basketball, and is awesome at it!
-tall
-gentle spirit with soft hands, just like my Papa
-like me, never been married, never had kids
-gets my jokes and makes me laugh too
-stops me mid sentence just to tell me I'm beautiful
-gives the most amazing hugs, and steals kisses at the perfect time
-has allowed me to enter into his family unconditionally
-loves me in spite of my Alma Mater (Go Noles!)
-can't imagine my life without him. 
-love

Funny enough, the same boy that stole my heart nearly four years ago, is the same boy I passed notes about in elementary and middle school, "so mean".  Oh those were the days! 

This boy already respects my father and loves my mother.  How do I know? Because he told me so.  Respects my father for his protective nature over his daughter. Loves my mother because he states that's who brought me into this world and taught me how to have such a huge heart and a beautiful spirit. 

I love that his nieces and nephews call me Aunt Ally and kiss me like they do him.  I love spending time with them on my own, or playing with them together with him while he teaches us all the 'true rules' of Dominos.  I love it even more, when he whispers gently how natural it feels when we're all together as the little kids don't want just pictures with him, but all of us together. 

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He has stolen my heart, and I am grateful that my mother has taught me compassion and beauty, and that my father has taught me how to look beyond the situation and into the person. 


Love you more!

...God's perfect timing...

Photo From Flickr User jonboy24/7 

Right now, many know I am struggling. Struggling to make ends meet, struggling to wonder why I'm where I'm at.  Not four years ago, and my income was $20k more than it is now.  I wonder daily how I make it, but I'm doing what I can with what I have.  Through God's grace and my wonderful family, specifically my sister and my mother, I have survived this past year.  Leaving a job with no idea what you'll do next because you know it's the best thing for you, is the scariest thing I've ever faced thus far.  The questions that existed during that time, and to this day, pushed me hard to continue to strive harder and continue to do so. Through that struggle while without a job, I was offered three separate jobs and took the job I'm with currently.  I enjoy it and am learning more and more daily. If you know me, boredom and monotony can really make me not want to stay in a job.

I still have no idea of God's plan for my life or why I'm in this situation but I know He can only use it for His good.

I ask now to please be praying for me.  I am searching steadily for a part time job at night to help ease the gap between what I make, and the bills I have.  I'm struggling to use the gifts and talents God has given me because my focus is not quite 20/20.  The stress level is making my head swim.  The saying goes, don't wait for tomorrow to do what you could start today.  But every day, the stresses push me down and it's hard to just start. Period.  The struggle of "just starting" may seem easy to some, or even most, but it's not easily understood unless you've walked through this before.  For me it's a huge struggle!  

As I was praying last night, Lord, where are You taking me?  How will I survive, I need to find a second job!  I'm willing, I'm able.  Please, just send me a job.  He immediately answered with this...

" ....my God will supply all your needs, according to His riches..." Philippians 4:19

I've been resting on that verse today and trying to keep my eyes and ears peeled.  Sometime's it's hard, thank goodness He knows I'm not perfect.

...Hearts Day a little early...

If you know ANYTHING about me, you know that I LOVE Valentine's Day! So when I saw this picture out there on the web with absolutely no directions (just pictures) because it's from somewhere in an Asian country (lots of symbols) I just had to try it for myself.  I love felt but haven't really figured out things I'd love to make with it.  And I have this awesome sewing machine that my sister bought me for my birthday.  I didn't put the felt balls in between but I still love how it turned out.  Oh and I bought some addorable mini clothes pins, but rather than keep them at their natural color, I thought I'd stain them a dark color.  So loving that part!!!
(http://www.duitang.com/people/mblog/13035472/detail/ the site that shows the directions in pictures)

All the little hearts, cut out and ready to be strung

I hope you have a wonderful Valentine's Day!

...rest in peace 2011...

Well this year has been interesting to say the least. I'm usually up for even years, but not odd years. I'm not superstitious but I much rather enjoy the even numbered years. I graduated in high school in 1994, college in 1998, should have graduated in college again in 2000 (but I needed to step out of that degree) and the last degree was supposed to finish up in 2008, I was a month too late. Either way, I'm excited for the new year! New things to come, new outlooks on life, and this year is an even year!!

I've had my iPad for over a year now, and enjoyed using it as my source of jumping on the internet or playing games on the plane while I traveled more than 300 days the previous year (I quit that job in May of this past year, so not nearly as many days traveled this year). I finally saw to it to download both the Kindle an the Nook app this year. I've downloaded a ton of free books and even bought one book a few months back. I recently learned of being able to "check out" ebooks from your library for free through the kindle app! So. Excited.

Whatever you do tonight, be safe, enjoy and remember, we get a do over every day, but tonight, we get to start a whole new year! It's like walking into the classroom the first day and the teacher tells everyone "You all have an A+ average right now!" Such a great feeling to know you can drop all of your worries and see to it that God helps you start a better and more fresh year!

Bring on 2012!!!!